Last month I *celebrated* (yeah, right) my 46th birthday. With the exception of my 30th birthday and then my 40th, birthdays in general haven't really bothered me all that much. Until now. For some reason, this magical 46th has completely thrown me for a loop. I don't know why. Perhaps it pushing over that halfway point between 40 and the DREADED 50.
In the days since Feb. 19 I am feeling more anxious and filled with urgency. I lay in bed at night trying to sleep and keep going through all the things I want to do, I *need* to do.
My husband and I have been hiking for years. Sometimes we go more often than others. We sit and look at the maps and books and talk about which hikes we are going to do, or want to do. But recently I keep thinking I have GOT to get them done and soon. I just want to get out and hike every day. The hell with work!
I recently got a really nice digital camera, something I've wanted to get and learn to use for years. But now, time is a-wastin'. I just want to get out there and shoot, shoot, shoot.
I've been doing canine search & rescue now for a little over 5 years. I am getting the "itch" to train another dog in a different discipline than I am currently doing because my current pup just doesn't seem really interested in the other displine, but it's something I want to try. Gotta do it now, before it gets too late.
Time is just slipping through my fingers and I'm desperately trying to slow it down, even just a little. I'm scared of that day when I won't be able to do the things I want to do. It's getting closer with every passing day.